Today is the day before my 22nd birthday and I cannot believe that we have finally made it to the end of this whirlwind 2020 year as well as the end of our 8 month engagement mark. This month has been the hardest so far of our engagement, and has challenged our relationship in ways I never thought possible. The month started off well with the wedding finally being just around the corner. I spent a lot of my free time working on the registry and guest list, ordering centerpieces and wooden flowers. I was growing more and more excited with each passing day. However, in light of some unforeseen personal events and with little help from a second COVID shutdown, at the end of the month, we made the decision to postpone the wedding till the end of March. The decision to postpone the wedding was one of the hardest decisions of my life but a decision that revealed to me just how much I am not in control and also how much God’s timing is so much wiser than our time. This month also revealed to me the beauty that comes from an unexpected change in direction and how much one is able to grow if they really set their mind to being transformed by God’s ways.
I had to surrender my pride, my desires, and even my confidence this month to the Lord during this month of November. I allowed others to speak into my life and I had to deal with some difficult tasks and decisions that challenged both my faith and my relationships. However, this month of November led into the calm and holy season of Advent preparing for Christmas of which I am unbelievably grateful. I have learned to slow down and no to rush through life but to focus on my faith and my relationships first and foremost. Nathan and I’s relationship has changed and adapted throughout the time we have known one another. I am coming to learn how we can grow with one another and to speak truths that each of us needs to hear, out of love for the other, and to lean on the Lord through every season. This month, Nathan officially completed his electrician schooling through Green River. Towards the end of the month, I began volunteering at Gold Star Dog Training School with the desire to get involved in the dog show world again and to start Everest in some training classes.
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